Today was a hard day for my heart. We can not help every person, every child. Only God is big enough to provide for all people. Even knowing that, it is hard to say yes to some and no to others. It is hard to commit to some and not to others. It is hard to put up walls, even the walls of a school, and include some but not others.
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| Tim, a local boy, watches the students |
We had another blessed day at Rock of Ages. The physicals have all been taken. Students homes were visited. Gifts were given to children and parents. More crafts were completed. Silly songs were sung. Posho was eaten. We were even blessed to have a visit from Pastor Jimmy, who lead a fellowship time with the students. We spent wonderful time loving the students of Rock of Ages.
But my heart was divided. Not all of the children I met today were students at Rock of Ages. Some of the children of Mbiko do not have the ability to attend school. Those children hear the laughing and the singing coming from the school. They see the mzungus (white people) playing with the students. They smell the lunch the students get to eat. But these neighborhood children can not join in with the students. They can not learn inside the walls of the school. Instead, they stand across the street and watch. My heart broke today for these children.
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| Some neighborhood children |
We can not provide for every child. Instead, we can love a few intensely. That is why this is titled commitment. Deep wounds take a long time to heal. It takes a deep undertaking of love to soften the hurt of abandonment. Promises that are kept and not broken, even when things are painful. That is a hard thing to give.
So some children can not be included. We are limited in how much we can give. The leaders at Rock of Ages are only human. They can not provide for every child in Mbiko. The school only has so many rooms. The cook only has so much food. Our human compassion can only reach so far to the hurting. Our human hearts can only love and help a limited few. That is the reality. That is the truth. But my heart broke today when I saw the limits of our human love. I saw the walls of Rock of Ages as the boundary between commitment and "I wish I could help."
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| Students pray with Pastor Jimmy |
But there is still hope. There is more love in this world than limited human love. God's love is not held by walls. It has no limits. There is no greater commitment than the love of God. God's love gave everything to say I love you. Jesus spread His arms as a sacrifice and as a welcome to adoption. My hope is in the Lord. My hope is that God loves the children outside the walls as well as those inside the walls. I trust that God provides for all His dearly loved children. In my weakness, He is strong. God's commitment is strong.
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